im tired. and im still trying to hang on. no longer can do the things i want. boohoo. i simply hate this. ARGH. this is not the way i want. but i dun have a choice either. this is life. =/

so many things i wanna buy. but guess i got to learn to be thrifty. shopping list getting longer and longer. shall be a good ger and see whats the most important before buying. haiz.

i dun wanna grow up. you are just that important.

Happy Teacher's Day. I just dunno how to express.

alright.. monday full shift.. so nothing much.. hahaa.. tuesday.. ya.. work half morning.. after that.. went to fuhua.. yipee! ya.. chatted with some teachers.. you all rocks.. because got me! the gd student. LOL.. yup.. then chat with you.. =) my whole day is brighten up!

ya.. then wed full shift.. so nothing much.. and bird called me in the night.. woot.. miss her like mad.. and finally im going to see her next week! yup alright.. then today thursday.. full shift also.. LOL.. thats my life.. and tmr! half morning! yeah! and i going fuhua again. LOL. see? im only going to work, sch and home. LOL!

we tok like how we used to.
we are still we.
some things just won't change.
im glad ive found you.
its still you and me. =)
i love you.

im here again. nothing much happen. work work and work. time pass so slow! haiyo~ and during break time.. wat i doing? eat and slp.. too tired.. hahaa.. somemore nowadays keep raining ah.. wa lao eh.. but it's ok i guess.. hahaa.. cos must work.. then got $!

ya ok.. then friday went sch.. bought some stuffs for you.. ok.. then changed uniform.. then went toa payoh range with bro.. cos of the sec 2 shoot practice.. then reached there ah.. dunno why the schools there ah.. only me and bro is the CIs there.. LOL.. the other schs all dun have de lor.. hahaa.. ok la.. anyway.. did some duties cos the ppl there need help.. then after that.. went back..

then went jurong point.. ate the damn nice western food at banquet basement.. woot~ hahaa.. then went macdonalds to eat oreo mcflurry.. hahaa.. damn nice.. then had meeting.. ya.. then went home.. tired.

gonna work for 1 more week! cant wait for my pay day!

finally have the time and energy to blog.. hehe.. unable to blog everyday cos' i'll be feeling so dead after work.. hahaa!! so sorry to my faithful readers.. IF i have any~ LOL!! anyway.. nothing much though.. have been working off my life.. LOL.. no choice.. i need $$!! need tons of shopping.. and i prolly spend more than i earn.. DOTS! my shopping list is like endless.. -.-'''

work have been fine and learning and learning as the days goes.. i like it though it's quite demanding~ did anything happen? no.. hahaa.. oh ya.. fallen sick.. didn't take good care of myself.. yup~ didnt drink water for like the whole day and i need to tok like 10 hrs? ya.. like tt lor.. pronounced sick. hahaa.. but i like my voice.. LOL.. so cute~

today.. half day.. so came home and slp.. and mum and bro wake me up for dinner.. im like a dead log.. hahaa.. then bro pulled chichichan and i screamed at him.. then i continue to slp.. so bro said one sentence to me.. 'oi.. wake up la! got a lot of things to eat' ya.. and after hearing this.. i woke up.. LOL!!! ya! mum made tempura! like that spell? the prawn one la.. rocks big time man.. hahaha!! ya.. like tt lor..

to this fren of mine.. you have made the decision.. ok.. dun feel bad abt it la hor.. haiyo.. i damn respect u and ur decision cos i too understanding liao.. cannot blame.. it's ur honoured to have me as your friend.. LOL.. self praise = it's a fact that i am.. LOL!! hannah~

im here! today.. too dots.. alarm clock rang at 6.40am.. press down.. slp! hahaa! then bird call me at 7.13am.. pok.. we meet at 7.45am.. hhaaa! jumped out of the bed.. went to bathe blah blah.. ya.. and guess wat? that stupid bird havent reach.. she reached at like 8am? hahaa.. ya.. so all the way to paya lebar again.. last training workshop.. hahaa.. 9am-1pm.. ya.. reached there.. went to the petrol station to get green tea and one curry puff.. was like so dead tired and hungry.. hahaa.. ya.. so after that.. went to beach road again.. hahaa! LAME. go there eat the damn nice lor mee again. then have the same drinks again. LOL.

ya.. then walked to bugis.. hahaa! then something damn funny happened.. u know those street shops.. have this canvas shelter rolling out from the top kind.. ya.. then above the shelter.. there is a water pipe leakage.. so got water coming down from the shelter la.. so bird didn't know that.. so i said..

pok: eh bird! see! got one cloud directly above the shelther raining!
bird: where where!!
(and she stop walking and look up into the sky.. finding the rain while i am walking like nobody business and she's still looking out for that cloud)
bird: pok!! where!!
(i can't believe she actually believe me)
pok: dun dots la!!! the water pipe leak la!
bird: (gave a hard smack on my back) chey! wa lao! i tot really have 1 cloud raining lor!

this is too dots la hor. LOL!! today kanna whack by her dunno how many times.. nvm.. i also whack her.. this is how we tok.. so to my frens out there.. if im toking to u and i suddenly whack u.. pls understand.. this is kinda habit.. harmless.. LOL.. think xy also kanna whack by me a few times.. ok.. hahaa!

ya.. so at bugis.. walked around lor.. bought some stuffs.. like broked? hahhaa! is really havent get pay and spending like there's no tmr. transportation fee is so damn high that i nearly have to top up $10 every 2-3 days. hahaa!! I NEED MY PAY!!!!!

alright.. never blog another week.. ok.. let me recall ok? patiently wait..

ok.. thursday.. ya.. went for job training.. nothing much though.. then friday morning.. went for job training again.. wasn't feeling very well.. have been ill-treating myself.. damn dots.. so after went fuhua.. was like no energy.. felt so damn dead that i think i am going to faint anytime.. too dots.. ok.. 5th aug right? hahaa.. my kids passing out parade.. yup.. everything was smooth and we enjoyed it! haha.. yup.. then went for dinner.. oh~ fried rice with egg.. and my kickapoo!!! hahaa.. so we order 9 or 8 cans of kickapoo.. hahaa.. long time never order so much liaoz..

ok.. then went for meeting at playground.. and somemore is the 1st day of the chinese 7th month.. hahaa.. so after zonghua and shihan left for their bus stop.. so me and zak happily stroll la.. since so many time to waste also.. as if i urgent to go home.. hahaa! ya.. so walked until the polyclinic bus stop.. then ya.. hahaa.. go home la!

ya ok.. saturday.. 1st day at work.. dun ask me where i work ok.. haaa! surprise! ok la.. not bad.. hahaha! ya.. then sunday also work lor.. then.. monday.. ystd? hahaa.. my off day! but guess wat? have to wake up early.. why? meet xy. that girl. LOL. ya..

met her at je.. then went ntuc to get some stuffs.. then come to my house.. becos why? hahaa! we making cake la.. ya.. she's too excited abt mei mei.. hahaa! and she must be missing mei mei now.. after making the cake.. she hugged mei mei and slp. -.- time's up! wake up! hahaa.. dinner time! prepared by my mama~ ya.. then after dinner.. we left.. to where? my turn to go her house.. this is damn act funny.. ok.. ya.. after her house.. then to where? esplanade. why? watch fireworks.

got ourselves a gd location and start to chit chat.. gossip abt ppl.. making comments.. so damn funny.. hahaa.. ya.. waited for like 2 hrs to watch a 10 mins fireworks.. kinda nice.. haha! ya.. then after that.. like 12.15am plus.. we went to cavenach bridge.. the bridge at fullerton hotel.. damn nice place.. ya.. so did some thinking la.. shall again real soon..

ya.. then today work again.. i robbed.. who? myself. bought some stuffs la.. LOL.. im broke! but heng working la.. so it's ok.. LOL.. sound as if i got my pay. -.-. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

ok.. 3 days never blog le? ok right.. monday.. went to sch.. did some cleaning and notice board stuffs.. nothing much though.. rather spend the time in school and do something than to rot at home..

tuesday.. woke up at 2pm? ya.. mad right.. dots.. then gio call me.. say im selected for the job.. yeah! haha.. finally got a job.. ya.. so wed have to go for 3 days training..

ya.. so today is wed.. met up with bird.. she's lucky im going with her ok.. as usual.. made me wait for her early in the morning.. so i was at je mrt station waiting for her to come from lakeside.. and she sms me that train is coming.. so i got in.. then i never see her.. ya.. dots.. so she call me.. and ya.. we are in 2 different train.. so i got down and got up another.. and there she is.. too dots.. and she's like keep complaining that she is hungry.. hahaa! so all the way to paya lebar.. and saw delifrance.. hahaa! but too bad.. just open.. so nothing inside.. hahaa! ya.. then went toilet to put make up.. LOL.. 1st time.. kinda so damn fun.. and im loving it~ although kinda mafan la..

ya.. and then we took the bus.. haha! wrong bus.. lame right? actually is only 2 stops away la.. hahaa! so we got down and walked all the way there.. lame la.. walk some stupid ulu road.. hahaa!! and it's like the 2 of us are perspiring.. LOL!! damn dots.. ok la.. heng on time.. hahahaa!!
then ya.. training started.. kinda nice la.. hahaa.. is whole day.. until 6pm.. but.. ya.. initially i was going to stay all the way.. but.. something cropped up in sch.. so i need to be there.. haiz..

ya.. so im sch.. handling all the stuffs.. wat to do.. haiz.. and my throat is kinda uncomfortable now.. kinda lose my voice just now.. cos didnt drink water for the whole day.. and i drank milo.. heaty some more.. dots.. but milo rocks.. and my throat dun rocks now..

i wanted so much to call out for you.. to see you.. but yet.. i can't do it.. something's in me.. blocking me.. so much i wanted.. nothing can measure.. i left.. with uncertain feelings inside me.. something's holding me back.. too much.. no way i can forget you..