hurr.. this few days.. suck.. ZzzZzz.. moodless.. so many things are happening.. sch work.. projects.. hurrs.. problems.. naggings.. ZzzZzzz.. wats going on.. everything seems to be going against me.. damn dots.. hmm.. ZzzzZZzz.. i need food.

should.i.give.up.should.i.stop.should.i.ask.for.transfer

hoho.. ok.. morning! rain! finally.. enjoyed my slp.. after so many cases of burnings.. it rained.. haaa.. then it's time to wake up.. yawn.. went town.. got a bag and something for my brother.. went to visit bird.. hehe.. dunno why everytime see her so happy de.. muacks! then came home.. yawn.. hahaa.. put down my things.. online a while.. and guess wat? it is going to rain again.. hahaa.. ok.. then went out again.. meeting janet and xy for dinner and shopping.. got a top.. hahaa.. then walk until dots.. went mac.. sit sit drink drink.. take stupid pics.. lol!! then sian liao.. come home and here i am blogging.. dots..

don't feel like blogging at all. wells, kills time. no lesson today. so slpt and slpt. tired. so boring. so dead. so tired. wanna hang out. but theres no one. so vexed. over so many things. sians. i wanna just get away from everything. to have time for myself and u. i miss those days. yes.. after reading von entry.. me too. really miss those days. how i wish time would return. yet, that is something that will never happen. hoho.. where are you..

hey hey.. haha.. alright.. shall tell ya guys abt my fun day.. went to town with teresa.. crapped all the wat from poly to far east.. see? we so pro.. haix.. lame like dots.. ok.. when we are on our way to far east.. guess wat? we were approached by STEVEN LIM.. and he was like wanting us to go for his eyebrow triming service.. keep persuading us.. and standing so close to us.. damn dots.. and he's wearing singlet.. oh yucks! the sight of him make me dots.. and teresa was like coming up with excuses.. so we manage to get off..

so while waiting for another von.. went to buy XXL chicken.. hope u all know wat is that.. so while queuing.. ok.. i saw him.. yup.. hahas.. exchange a few sentences and he left.. ok.. hahaa.. ate that damn big chicken.. shopped around far east and von came liao.. ya.. and we are walking at a damn fast pace.. no idea also.. hahaa.. ok.. went shopping.. von get her things.. while me and teresa was crapping away.. commenting on clothes.. think that von also cannot tahan.. hahaa!

ok.. headed for levis.. oh man.. headed for 2 outlets.. or 3? forgotten.. hahaa.. the jeans dun have the size.. out of stock.. von's bag is not there.. ya.. so all the way from far east.. we walk walk.. to.. PS.. oh man.. our last hope.. oh yes! the jeans there have the size.. got von's bag.. and the 3 of us are so excited.. each of us bought a pair of jeans.. and von bought a chocolate bag which she says is BROWN.. hahaa! so satisfied..

then.. headed to gelare.. cos tuesday.. hahaa.. half price.. and ya.. von and teresa couldnt finish it.. and of cos.. i finished.. hahaa!! then von need to go and meet her friends.. so we left together.. oh man!! at raffles mrt.. saw bird!!! didnt see her at least.. until teresa said to me ' is that ur fren? ' turn around.. and smack hard on bird.. and i think she get a shock of her life.. hahaa! oh man.. miss her lots.. felt so happy to see her.. boohoo.. so fast.. mrt reach je liao.. have to part with her.. oh.. miss her.. pok love bird =)

yes. it have ended. happy ending. and i love it. thanks. =)

alrights! chingay 2005 - Parade of Dreams. hahaa.. received pink tshirts with great designs on it so it doesnt seem bad.. and looks nice! haha.. alright.. my spot.. haha! sector 1.. and guess wat.. think my job is the most slack and easiest la.. guess where am i standing? beside those damn big and loud speakers.. haha! and wats behind me? bushes.. haha! my job? to make sure that those people don't sneak out from the bushes. hahaa!! how great~ haha! so i can just continue to watch the parade without any disturbance.. haha!! am i doing duty or watching? hahaa! watever it is.. ya.. stood there for like 6hrs each for 2 days.. made new friends.. haaa..

1st nite.. waited for cabby.. waited and waited.. but none stopped.. why? becos all are on call.. or hired.. blah blah.. ya.. so brendan,sukarti and me was like stood for the whole day liao.. then still standing to wait for the stupid dumb dumb cab.. which came after like half an hr.. too dots.. ya.. too tired to wait till we sat at the roadside.. hoping for some gd soul uncle to stop their cabby.. hahaa.. oh man..

2nd nite.. we got smarter.. hahaa! took a bus to bukit batok.. and from there.. we took a cab home.. hahaa.. cos by the time we reach bukit batok.. there is no bus liao.. hahaa.. 2nd day felt much better la.. shake here and there.. doing that YMCA.. haha! nah.. didnt do it on the street.. was doing that at the command post.. haa! how dumb yeah~ ..

alrights.. shall go for next year chingay duty.. hahaa..

perhaps. yes. perhaps. no. i can't bring myself to. and i hate the feeling of wanting to. don't force me. i dun like it at all. really. perhaps. it's time. perhaps. it's my fault. it shouldnt have started. perhaps. it's bad. too late. but i don't mind it. it's not ur fault. everyone is different. so am i. ups and downs. tears, kisses and hugs. i've experienced. and i love them. i've received lots of love. care. concern. sacrificing. only someone in the world. can do that. i greatly appreciated that. a bird flies back to its own nest. even there is another, it wouldn't be better. the standards have been set. and you can't meet it. and you will never.ever.

yes. you. is you. just a simple call. brighten up my day. it have been months. yes. it have. thanks. really appreciated that action of yours. it just lift me up. days have passed. so did months and years. still, you will never be replaced. only you, know me best. you make me feel the real me. you are so important to me. don't dare to imagine days without you. though without physically, not mentally. somehow, find it so hard to accept some people who are close to me. hence, there will be times i will be avoiding. tell me what should i do. i don't dare to get close with them.

no.one.knows.me.better.than.you.do

happy valentine's day. oh.. today.. monday blues.. didnt want to wake up to go to sch.. have been waking up at afternoon during the 1 week break and now suddenly have to wake up so early to go to sch.. oh my god.. it's worst than wanting my life.. hahaa.. but in the end.. still dragged myself to sch.. and adding to it.. still must bring laptop.. oh man.. had infa.. wa.. stepped into the class.. the tutor wear until so wiu weet.. really new year.. hahaa.. then again.. yup.. i answered most of the infa qns.. hahaa.. cos that ailin everytime dun wan to say.. so everytime can hear my voice la.. hahaa.. went to meet ta04 at atrium.. after lunch.. was watching jay incomparable vcd at atrium.. hahaa.. so nice though i have watch it dunno how many times before.. hahaa! then! oh man! 1pm! BCA lesson! was thinking of pon ten.. hahaa.. really la.. today no strength.. like walking zombie.. dread the whole lesson.. too dots.. finally.. ya.. 4pm.. went home straight and bom on my bed.. hahaa! alrights.. looking forward to wed.. don't know wat will happen.. hahaa..

alrights. wad happen these few days? hahaa.. happily gambling.. win lose win lose.. haha! well anyway.. yup yups.. enjoyed myself these few days. really. oh man.. didnt study a bit at all. but well.. who does? haha! woohoo.. bought an expensive bracelet.. and ya.. real ex.. went to westmall.. wanted to get something for my brother.. but too bad.. there don't have.. guess i have to go town liao.. then.. got jay fantasy album.. yeah! bought a breadtalk blackforest cake.. oh man.. taste so nice! had steamboat today with my brother's girlfriend.. this week sure fat.. hahaa!! well well.. tmr is valentine day.. hope u all enjoy urself yeah! cheers! love ya~! muacks!

hehehe.. HAPPY NEW YEAR friends! oh how great~ .. 1stly.. gd news.. i bought my clothes.. hahaa!! well well well.. woohoo.. this few days have been rocking man.. hahaa! shall post a short entry.. hahaa.. new year! lots of holidays.. but have to do some dumb dumb elearning.. haix.. oh ya by the way.. i passed my infa!! hehe... and guessed wat? ok.. ssshhhh.. i wore skirt.. oh man! who could imagine that! hahaa.. alright.. don't get too excited.. cheers.. enjoy your holidays!

oh~ went bugis with zh,yq and brendan.. shop shop.. but in the end? bought no clothes again.. oh man.. but well well.. haha.. manage to get jay incomparable concert DVD.. wahhaa.. felt so axious to go home and play it.. hahaa! oh man.. jay book cost $15.something at kinokuniya.. i bought it around $26.. hahaa.. dropped so much in price.. hahaa..
another super dots entry. guess wat? ya.. parents did bring me out.. so i still didnt buy any clothes. oh man.. someone pls tell me.. wat am i going to wear on chinese new year? hahaa.. oh.. felt really down when i didnt get any clothes... haix.. oh well well.. tmr going town again to try my luck.. hhaaa.. have been going town so often nowadays.. dots.. oh pls pls.. have some clothes.. oh.. if i didnt manage to get any tmr.. i will feel damn down for my chinese new year.. oh man.. touch wood..
today.. ok day.. hahaa.. helped my mama to make 160 yam sticks? dunno whats that la.. some nice food for chinese new year la.. haaa! then rot at home.. felt tired.. hahaa.. oh yes! finally i catch some slp last nite..
pls pray for me that i am able to get some clothes tmr!!!

wad a boring friday.. ZZZzz.. wad the hell.. hahaa.. woke up at like ard 1pm.. woke up feeling loss.. oh dear.. why am i feeling this way... hate it.. yucks! slack till 2 something.. can't really make up my mind what to do next.. then.. decided to go jp to walk ard since i got nothing better to do.. but didnt go in the end.. EEKS! wats happening? so went down and packed lunch.. after that.. continue to slack.. oh mine~.. then mum called.. said tonight going out.. getting some new year clothes for me.. and that of cos brighten my day.. so decided to be some gd girl.. packed tables.. wipe wipe.. then dad came home.. the moment he entered the house.. i was feeling damn dots la.. cos he was like rushing for some things.. and ya.. i'm so smart.. i'm right.. he's going out! cos his company got some casual dinner for chinese new year.. ya~. and.. of cos.. i am not going anywhere.. oh suck. didnt have the mood for dinner. for anything. dad promised to bring me out tmr. alrights. lets wait till tmr. hope i will have some gd news.

alright.. wat a day.. i gonna blog a long one.. haha! went to town after test.. went far east gelare and had waffle icecream! oh my god.. so damn long nvr eat.. hahaa.. but still perfer marche one.. still got mango.. blah blah.. oh my god.. is just too heavenly.. gelare chocolate overload is nice.. lol!! then went scotts coffeebean.. then lucky plaza mac.. but the twister fries is out of stock! so.. no mood to eat anything.. ahaha! damn choosy right.. hahaa.. then.. went paragon.. then.. went where sia.. walk walk.. hahaa! forgot! oh mine..
remembered we went heeren.. found birdy!!! she still same same.. heehee.. then pierced my ears.. cos np too long.. then nvr wear.. then close.. damn dots.. long time nvr pierce.. haha.. then the gun.. bam! hahaa.. dots.. then go where? eh.. robinsons.. cos got $100 voucher.. die die must spend.. hahaa.. was buying a button shirt for my brother.. then jiayi prefer another design.. while the 4 of us prefer this design.. and jiaji was like wondering why every one of us is opposing her.. ahaha.. dots.. so suhanah said that ' it was u who are making us to oppose you' haha.. isn't that a gd one? hahaa! anyway.. then all of them needed to go off..
left me and teresa.. then we continue to shop.. and we come out with a conclusion that! designers are bias.. ahahaa! cos they design nice nice clothes for the slim.. but not for the a bit not slim.. then the belt.. for those waist who are small.. no more longer.. damn dots hor? don't u all notice that? hahaa!! anyway.. finally used up the $100 voucher.. hahaa.. and discover that there is a food court near robinsons.. so settled our dinner there.. next time can go there eat.. not bad.. hahaa.. actually can blog more la.. but like long.. hahaa!

test.tests.and tests. hahaa! sian right.. see the test word.. already dun feel like blogging.. haha! anyway.. ok la.. hope can pass.. hahaaa.. wa lao eh.. spend the past few days.. studying and crapping.. oh.. simply love crapping.. oh.. i love my frens.. stop crapping la.. too much.. we are too dots.. hahaa! looking forward to shopping tomorrow! hahaa.. nothing very big happen nowadays.. so guess shall stop here.. lalaa~~!
the feeling of waiting and waiting is unbearable..