gonna blog more often. kinda realise im suffering from some memory loss if i didnt blog for sometime. so before all that is gone, i shall blog. -.-'''

alright.. 19th.. went for syf training.. nothing much to blog abt that also.. haha! oh ya.. only this part is that.. i finally saw yati.. its like.. it have been near to a year since i last met her.. and of cos.. we had dinner at our fav long john silver.. hhaa! it was good.

friday 21st.. took the sec 2s to their shoot shoot.. my dear xy is there.. after like a few months as she's away for her attachment at china.. haha! woot.. nothing much also.. lame -.-'' then after that.. went back to shop.. cos that zhu tou birthday.. of cos im damn early.. so had my favourite delifrance set meal.. wahaha.. then help the bosses to close shop.. im good. LOL!

ordered canadian pizza.. cos the bosses are hungry.. so we ate first before zhu tou arrive.. and the secret recipe cake is so damn heavy la.. -.-'' and guess wad.. when we are taking grp pic.. ivy boom me with the chocolate cake! my face is like monkey? thats wat ayuni says. -.-'' and everyone bullies me. HEY! IM NOT THE BIRTHDAY GIRL. and know wad? is becos everyone has makeup on.. except for me.. so im the one. yahs. -.-'' but the girls had a great nite.

alright.. monday 1/2 M.. went to town with fatin to eat long john again.. haha! then she went work.. so i went to find my dear bird.. she's working M.. so i waited for her.. so i got hours to spend.. went basically the whole town.. went to far east to look for clothes.. but kinda dun have.. went shaw.. went tangs.. went heerens.. ah ha.. my fav shopping centre.. LOL! went to newurbanmale.. tried the tees.. had a long time at the shop.. haha! who cares.. i got time.. and of cos i bought one tee.. haha! went Flash.. saw a pair of ripcurl boardshorts.. love at first sight.. $79.. is so damn nice.. should i get it?

went adidas.. but there isnt any nice tee right now.. so went levis.. walk ard.. saw a tee.. gave it a try.. and ya.. i bought it. LOL! and i told the staff that i'll be back next week to get a pair of jeans and another tee. LOL! AM I REALLY!? haha.. pls pray my pocket is full of money.

just now.. met up with dear xy.. treated her gelare at PS.. i also so damn long never eat le.. then she gave me the present that she got for me in china.. so damn cute la.. cute person always got cute things.. she probably faint if she see my blog entry.. alright.. walked ard.. cos she need a pair of slipper.. haha! ok.. something happen.. i shall not say.. if not she is going to kill me.. after that.. tok tok.. yup.. =)

im back to blogging. and i realised that almost every post that i posted.. the starting is around the same.. LOL!!! cant be more creative. LOLS!

alright.. 10 to 13th.. was missing.. haha! attended first aid course.. woot.. learn damn alot of stuffs.. and im teaching first aid to my colleagues madly until they are irritated with me.. haha! well.. a person without oxygen for 4 minutes will die. and someone who knows and perform CPR might be able to save a person life.

But ask yourself, although u are a first aider.. one day while shopping in a shopping centre.. an old man who is a stranger to you suddenly collaspe and is in danger.. would you perform CPR to him? Many would say no. Because he is not your love one, not ur relatives, not someone connected to you. He is just a person you are walking past everyday in the streets. But to his family, he might be the sole breadwinner, he might have a disabled wife to take care of.. and so on..

ok.. think im getting too emotional.. haha! but.. think about it~. oh yea.. alot of funny things happened during the course.. and of cos there is this joker in the class whom me and polly named HO. haha!! he is a uncle volunteer, and starting of the course, me and polly think that wow.. he like very experience leh.. watever the instructor say.. he also chap in.. LOL! but in the end.. boo boo.. hahaa! he doesnt know a thing. -.-''' smart can liao, dun act smart. LOL! but he really BRIGHTEN up our lives yea? LOL! im bad.

tuesday.. went queensway after course before work.. was waiting for the traffic light man to turn green.. and suddenly the person standing beside me step on my nike shoe!! i was like what the hell.. and guess wad.. YVONNE! i was like ??? damn FATIN. wa lao eh!! she damn dots. hahaa! love her man.. just nice she going queensway also.. ahaa! so we went la.. i went to look for a new pair of nike shoe.. and tadang!! love at first sight.. but no size! so went to many shop and look for my small foot size.. haha! so finally got it!! thats the problem with some small leg. haha! then i went work and fatin went work too..

thursday.. went to town to help get poster for shop at centrepoint.. then went to heeren to see see look look.. and of cos.. always get tempted.. so tadang! bought a pair of trekking flip flop and numflipflop.. wahaha! -.-'' ok.. then went back to shop.. had my favourite pasta.. woot..

alright.. then worked.. promotions are a headache.. argh.. there are so many things to tell the customer.. haiyo.. tok until the mouth dots.. haha! ya.. then wasnt feeling quite right with my throat ystd when i woke up.. too dots.. haha! and today also.. so when im brushing my teeth and rinsing.. something is like stuck inside the throat.. so guess wad.. i coughed and 1 thick and clogged red muecus(dunno how to spell).. oh gosh.. my throat is like bleeding or something? and i coughed another time.. another 1 thick and clogged red muecus flew out.. haiz.. i need a doctor!!!

im not happy with the way i am now. what's happening to me? haix..

am i stressing myself with some unncessary issue? am i stressing myself too much? or am i stressed by people around me?

i.just.wan.to.be.happy

ok.. i know i have disappeared for quite some.. to those who keep nagging me to blog.. ok.. im here..

what had happened for the past few days?

well.. went for speech day.. didnt take much photos as i expected.. wasnt really in a gd mood though, nothing to with my cadets or CIs. maybe is just becos im so damn tired with things and i seriously wanna tok to u but there isnt any chance.. haix.. was searching for u but cant seem to locate u..

worked worked and worked.. was on morning shift that day.. so went to MDIS.. decided to take diploma in business management.. gonna work hard for it after 2 years.. wouldnt say that i have wasted 2 years.. at least i learnt something..

have been wanting to get a new pair of shoes.. but cant seem to find any that i really like.. and there isnt any time for me to find too.. my life is just so packed.. adding to that, some people just cant understand why do i need some time for myself, making me more arghhh!! there are so many tons of things i wanna do but it's always so packed!! even if i have a off day, its up to me if i wan to go out or stay at home. so dun interrupt.

there is no one day u are out of my mind. till now, it have been years. think im going mad soon.

till then, i just wan to be alone. just hope that this month will end faster. then probably, i will have some time for myself.