fail. one word in my dictionary. since poly starts, nothing seems to be right for me. hardly pass any test or even retest. not pushing the faults as it's all started becos of me. flunked today exam. maybe poly like is so different from sec sch life.. and i still need time to adapt to it.. i have no idea.. my brain is dead and i can't think of anything..
i have enough. enough of all these torturing.. all these sufferrings.. and i am taking it all by myself.. i need a space.. a space for myself.. for me to breathe.. so many things are pressing on me.. let me go.. let me..

waiting.alone.

hoping.to.

have.someone.

dead.night.

all.alone.

loneliness.kills.

suffocating.alone.

hoping.that.

you.know.

how.i.wish.

u.will.appear.

to.save.me.

from.this.situation.

to.tell.you.

i.need.you.

i.miss.you.

where.are.you.

come.to.me.

i.love.you.

hmm.. once during bstats lesson.. we were talking and talking.. of cos all crap.. and yifeng suddenly came out with this qn. why does a dead body have maggots? how did maggots come out from the body? so i was questioning her.. hmm.. so we are made up of maggots? hahaaaa!! and to think that the group of us keep thinking about her qn..
hahahaa.. and now! mE!! have come out with the ans.. wahahaa.. well actually.. when a body is dead.. the immune system stops.. and hence.. germs in our body somehow.. blah blah blah.. i have no idea too.. ahahaa.. therefore.. our body is so called eaten up by those things or creatures.. and.. also.. we never really see maggots crawling out of the body right.. hahaa!! wait till i see then i will come and reason out again.. but i am not going to watch over a dead body for weeks and wait for maggots to come out!!!

Someone ever told me..

it's not the results that matter. its the process that matters.

So what if i going to spend 3 and a 1/2 years or even 4 years in poly?

After you have graduate and go out into the society, who cares how long have you studied?

As long as it is worth it, why not?

Life - how do you define life? Does anyone know the defination?
To me, life is in need of love,care,concern,trust and many more. How do you expect a life without love to carry on? What's a life without love? What's a life without feelings?

Life - How do you make full use of it?
We all are born to this world.. to be given the chance to live on this Earth.. but how would it feels if your life is controlled? How does it feels if you are being forced to do something you wouldn't wish to do.. and not being able to do the things you like? Why can't I be myself? Why can't I do the things I like? Why do I have to listen? Why do I have to obey? Why? Is this Life? Why do we always have to think of our future? Nobody knows the future. So why bother to think? Why can't we take a step at a time? Why must everyone study? Is studies a part of life? Does studying helps to sustain life? Or does studying kills a life? If not, why do students commit suicide because of studies? There is no need to study.

What is Life after Death?
How does it feels to live after death? Do I still have any feelings? Am I still consider a human or a ghost? Why are humans scared of ghosts? Aren't they going to be one anyway? So why be scared? Will they be scared of themselves?

Ghosts- Defined as spirits. Does spirits have feelings? Do they need love? How is it like to be a spirit? Are humans afraid of being a ghost?

*Everyone has to die. Live everyday to the fullest. That's Life. Don't regret.
* Do think about what I have published.
*Composed by piggy p pok 2

Happy Children's Day to Me!! haha.. well.. who say children's day is only meant for children? hehe.. can't believe that i went to school early in the morning.. reached the grand stand at 7.50am.. waited for the aerobics teacher till 8.20am.. waste my time.. and her class was so slack! not like ms jack class.. and i can see people wear jeans.. some without shoes.. some with flip flops and skirts doing aerobics.. really too slack!! and actually got bstats from 10-12.. but then that sissy say he got meeting.. so let us go at 11am.. then we postponed the bstats tutorial with the uncle to next week.. hahaa.. so i left school at 11am.. reached home at around 11.45pm.. and my phone rang.. and guessed wat? yvonne ask me to go back to school to study.. this is the second time whenever i reached home then she call me out again.. faint~ anyway.. of cos i did go back to school and study INFA! LOOK PROPERLY! i studied INFA!!! can't believe it myself too~ hahaa.. i am facing INFA for hours!!! but then after... went to marina bay to have steamboat with glen,bird,huisi and june.. had a great time with them! miss them lots~