was reading a book during that rainy afternoon. stories after stories. and i bet tons of people have read this story/email/sms about it. If you know you are going to die the very next moment, and you only can make 1 phonecall. who would u call? and wat would you tell that person? cherish everyone before it's too late. just say i love you to your parents, your siblings, your love ones.

but how many of us can actually open up yourself and tell that person the 3 words? somehow, i come to realise that it is becos of fear. you are scared of telling that person. you dunno how that person would react. you are scared that he/she thinks that you are mad. you are scared that after you tell he/she, there is no reply from them. the feeling just sucks.

cold. burrrr.. guess wad.. hohoho.. i think rheumatism is acting up fast man. hates. making my joints pain like.. dunno wad. LOL! hate it la!!

had some mad acts with bird. think the both of us are going mad. LOLs. we are in the same boat. LOL! and she always say it's different. LOL!

always look on the bright side of life. NIKE.

woots. shaved head. began my mad acts. dunno why. but behaving madly nowadays. nearly cut botak. seriously is nearly. shaved head = start afresh. kaoz. sound like im like a monk like tt. LOL!

mad acts again. stayed out of home. hanging out with friends. it is just a great feeling when u have a bunch of friends to hang out with, and with all the craps and nonsense coming out from their mouth. LOLs. ate some nice food and wedges. woot. watched movie. walked madly. ate again. LOL.

i know im gd at sticking to my principles. =)

i know i suck at resisting temptation to buy stuffs. =)

tell me if this is the way we are going to be and i will respect your decision.

i just find myself repeating things over and over again. shall stop now.

never be replaced.

all the best.

hello? =) changed my blogskin as you can see. son aka shifu teach me one. dun play play. actually it is quite easy. lol. didnt expect it to be so easy. think im going to get hook. but no point changing the skin every now and then right. LOL. im a noob. LOL!

chose this skin cos' quite cute right. though small. but it gives a peaceful feeling i guess.

oh watevers. it's 3.06am now. -.-'''

son said my recent post all sad sad one. so must blog something happy. but no choice la.. haha..

next wed date son for ban mian! woot. it's the nicest dish you can ever find in jurong west. LOL!

ok dots. i seriously dun have the high mood to post something high. -.-'''

suddenly. everything seems to come to an end.

you showed me and i guess now it's time for explanation.

or perhaps. you may feel there is no need.

wow. greats.

things shouldnt have turned out this way. seriously not.

it's time to start afresh.

but there's no way you will be forgotten.

it's raining heavily outside.

and what am i doing here.

waiting.

shan't think about it anymore.

shan't guess about it anymore.

cos i think.. and i guess.. you want it this way.

i may wronged you, but you cant blame me.

you make me feel this way.

dead.

tiring. stocktake last night. yawns. dunno why but i think im getting fatter? LOL. or should use a different manner to describe, having a bigger build. LOL! and on the other hand, i think im getting stronger. but still a super long way to go. becos right now! is to concentrate to my again-having-foot-rot-leg and the ugly-patchy-unbalanced-tone-hands. haix.

it's going to be thursday.

hopes.

* im trying so damn hard to save. =)

i dunno wat to blog, only feel like blogging. gonna work 3 days full shift. and here comes friday.

wat should i do?

haix.

thursday.. basically rotted the whole day.. but managed to get some stuffs done.. so it was quite ok..

friday.. meet up with kids to have dinner.. was having dinner at kopitiam.. then we ordered can drinks.. then only damn awhile.. this uncle come and ask us for the cans.. so my dear jiayi being the fast drinker and gd boy.. he emtpy the can into his cup.. then the uncle ask for mine.. then i say no.. cos im the weak drinker.. LOL! and for the whole dinner session + tok cock session.. i bet the uncle came and asked for the cans for more than 5 times. super feel like shouting vulgarities at him..

hey come on, im having dinner, im drinking my drink. i paid $1.10 for it. im talking to my friends. can you god damn don't disturb. he was so despo for my can that eventually he sat down at the table next to us, just for my can. Knowing he was doing that, i decided to drag the time. and in the end, he stood up and go for another table. and i left with my frens too with the can in my hand, throwing it into the bin somewhere i walked past.

a pile for shit for that uncle. after that.. decided to go to canal to celebrate that festival.. wats that call.. mooncake festival? lantern festival? LOL! i seriously dunno. been long since i played. enjoyed. =) with tons of nonsense from my kids. LOL!

no luck today i guess.

forever dreaming.

everyday

i pray

that my dreams come true.

Everyone makes mistake.
Who doesn't anyway.
The more important thing,
You must admit it.
Learn from it.
Stop repeating it.

worked today. wat else.

be yourself becos there's nothing disgraceful, nothing's wrong.

wassup with my posts nowadays? Z.

ignores.

blogging madly. have the feel. shall ignore.

i know i got so many things to say to you. i wanna ask you so many things. i just wanna be there. becos of a promise i promised to you.. and im still hanging on to the promise, making me dunno wat to do.

can you just let me know how are you feeling.

dun leave me down here thinking and thinking until i dunno who i am!

eerks. wassup nowadays. annoyed. getting damn emo. wassup with emo taking over me nowadays. eerks. hate it.

i cant help but think think THINK!

and have to control control CONTROL!!

TELL ME!!!

im going nuts.