yawns. yawning again. sians. why nowadays so sian de huh? ZzzZzz..

had parade ytd.. like that lor.. nothing special happen also.. only headache headache and more headaches.. changes having here and there.. editing there and here.. hmm.. today cooked lunch.. then studied for tmr exam.. after tmr.. free.. wahaha!! sians.. my holiday also packed like mad.. guess my this holiday.. hahaa.. will be spent in fuhua..

humans. wat are they made up for? haix. some. only know how to comment on this and that, pin point this and that, and leaving u there alone to do all the jobs. to handle all the things. they are selfish. arent they? they wouldn't understand how it felt. to be the one. if you can't even set an example, so expect much ok? and if you are supposed to be one, and yet you give excuses, hey man, get lost.

wad a day sia. woke up at like ... 2pm? hahaa.. weather too shiok.. too cooling.. lol.. then wad??? had maggi mee.. with mushrooms and egg and wu xiang.. not bad la.. LOL.. felt so dots rotting down in front of my lappy.. so decided to tidy up my wardrobe.. ZZzzzZZzzz

was clearing.. and packing of cos.. and found out that 1 of my shirts is missing! oh my god! i cannot lost that shirt sia.. i will go mad.. ya.. so did i.. went around the house looking for that shirt.. throw my clothes out of the wardrobe.. and guess wat.. i found it~ phew~~ where? it was with a stack of white clothes.. mum put it there the last time she packed my wardrobe.. ARGH! but thankfully.. found it.. yepps.. threw away 1 stack of clothes.. =) and i seriously think i need a new wardrobe! kinda no space.. and also old liao right.. ZzzZZzz..

then wad.. rot all the way till mum and bro came home cos they went out this morning to pray and the lazy me was in my pig sty.. anyway.. went downstairs with brother.. and both us went to to have a haircut.. haha.. bought autosol.. polished my cadets time badges since i got nothing better to do.. hahaa.. and now here.. in this dead night lies me in front of the lappy blogging.. where my whole family is sleeping.. ZZzzZZZz

today.. wad did i do? haha.. went delifrance with yati and zonghua.. woohoo.. when was the last time i stepped into delifrance? LOL.. anyway.. saw the breads and stuff.. tempt me like mad.. havent even find a place to settle down already kenna tempted until dunno where.. LOL! alright.. had crossiant tuna with corn soup with garlic bread with ice lemon tea.. wahaha! life's great.. isnt it? hahaa..

then went fuhua.. settle some stuffs.. then took cab to HQ.. bought some stuffs and settle stuffs.. why forever settling stuffs? aiya.. is like that.. ok.. nothing much also la.. then took a cab back to fuhua.. put down things.. then went home..

oh yes! curry chicken! woohoo.. rocks.. i mean home ok.. mum cook.. flooded my plate of rice with the gravy.. as if i am having curry porridge.. ok.. thats lame.. anyway.. enjoyed my dinner.. wahaha.. and of cos got vegetable la.. healthy.. LOL.. cheers for nice food on earth! =)

sleeps. yesh. sleepss! more sleeps. oh.. i need that badly. havent been slping for the last 3 nights. pls have some mercy on me and dun take away my sleeps.

went out with my frens. crazy bunch of them. hahasss. filling spaces with laughters. =) went beach road army market to get some stuffs for npcc.. warning to those going beach rd.. do check out the prices for every stall. haha.. asked for the same thing i want.. and the price ranges from $6- $38.. for the same thing! LOL.. and of cos i got the $6 one.. not becos it is the cheapest but it also have a good quality.. soo.. yepps! love it.

next.. went kallang.. to make the tee shirts.. haha.. explained what we wan to the uncle.. and the uncle got a shock of his life.. with his eyes staring so big at us.. haha! so after we explain.. the uncle said that it will be quite expensive.. so the bunch of us was like.. oh no.. sure $20 plus or wat.. and the uncle was busy pressing onto his BIG calculator with the serious look.. and he announced.. one tee will cost... $18.50. HAHAHA!! and now is our turn to get shocked. LOL.. uncle.. your defination of expensive is how much huh? LOL.. of cos we didnt ask that question! hhaa..

alrights.. after that took a bus from kallang all the way to westmall.. for wat? to rot our time away.. hahaa! alrights.. soon.. 6pm.. got to go! to? dinner at NTU.. a chingay appreciation dinner for crowd controllers.. thats me! haaa.. reached there.. and they started playing this chingay video.. and all of us was like.. are we supposed to watch for like 2 hours before we can eat? haha! then soon after.. the buffet people starts to remove the food covers.. and all eyes were at the food and not the video.. how greats~ haha..

then our table.. yes.. i am the only female.. well its ok.. haha.. started to take food.. each person is to take one dish.. ya.. see? 1 person take a plate of 1 dish.. and started to put down on the table and continue to take.. soon.. our table is flooded with food.. people walked past and keep staring at our table.. hahaa! imagine the scene.. haha! then another funny guy came with like.. 1 full tray of drinks! hahaa.. and we only got like how people? LOL!! but in the end.. too pro.. finished all the food we took.. hahaa! all big eater sia.. LOL..

alrights. it's my great day. cheers!

alrights. yes. misunderstandings are caused because of different mindsets, and perhaps generation gaps? wells, whatever it is. every individuals are born to be different. so, let it be. accept it. the world is cruel.

yeppys! today got to meet up with my friends. it have been so so long. months i guessed? hahaa.. love them lots lots.. had a great laugh at je mac.. laughed there.. all the way to huayi sec.. then all the way to fuhua mac.. then rot there for hours again.. yes of cos.. laughed again.. hahaa! oh.. feel so efficient.. aren't we? wat a great design of tee shirt.. hope we can really make it ok? love u guys man! muacks!

yeps.. i love my day. yes. today. =)

home.sweet.home. simply love this place. cheers!

alrights.. today had BCA exams.. yea.. read that? final exam.. LOL.. alrights.. went into this classroom.. feeling hot becos the air-con is not on.. so the class settled down and wait for the teacher to come.. then the teacher also feels hot and ask the class abt the aircon.. then everyone starts complaining.. so the teacher called the dunno wat la.. some serviceman or wat.. then.. the serviceman came.. open the classroom door.. press on the green button.. and the air con works.. ahhaa! how dumb are we.. LOL!!!! everyone saw the button there.. but no one tot that it is for the air con!!! LOL!!

alright.. the paper was like.. easy? LOL! was a 1 hr paper.. so was in my simple clothes.. tee and shorts and sandals.. LOL! was feeling a bit cold though.. under that dumb dumb aircon.. hahaaa!! hmmm.. sure can pass this module la.. 1 down.. 3 to go.. 3 tough ones i would say.. hahaa.. gonna mug even harder for that.. please pray for me.. LOL!

to all: do i need a haircut? =P

wad am i doing here? isn't there BCA test tmr? LOL! watever it is.. wells.. bleh!

booooorrrriinnggg day i had. woke up.. went jp for lunch.. had pizza hut.. woot~ damn long never eat pizza hut.. well.. miss delifrance as well.. who wanna go? haha.. not my treat hor.. just wanna eat.. swensens also.. crystal jade.. hurr.. i need money.. suddenly feel kind of broke.. LOL! no idea why nowadays feel so broke..

interviewed my cadets.. hurr.. received some funny answers.. some pleasant ones.. alright.. shall stop here with the interview.. was sitting in the classroom for like 2 hours? LOL! luckily didnt fall asleep.. anyway.. i won't la.. haiyo..

well actually.. i also dunno wat to blog.. just feel like whipping up some dishes and eat.. cook cook and cook!!! anyone wanna share some dishes? recipes??

rainy day. sunny day. things change so fast yea? yesterday was one story and today was another one. life is so unpredictable. you never know what is the next thing u gonna receive. haix. sometimes. i don't understand either. but i am always here.

alrights. exams coming. sians. mug mug mug!! please pray for me. trainings. and more trainings. as the days goes.. it gets nearer and nearer.. hurr hurr.. someone pls help me to destress.. hahaa.. i have been trying my very best to destress.. LOL!

i'm.on.a.roller.coaster

i'm in a dazed. tell me what should i do. just tell me. there are so much things that i wanna say to you yet i dunno where to start it off. i miss you. dearly. tok to me. please. i beg you. yes, you just have that so big impact on me. can you hear me? oh yes please. i need you. you left me so confused. guide me. please. all these things shouldnt be happening. but why is it now? weeks before? months before? WHY! i wanna know. share with me. there are so many things that i wanna share with you. i wanna tok to you. i'm going mad. i gonna suffer a breakdown soon. only you can prevent everything from happening. please. please. please.

we.still.have.many.three.years.to.go
isn't.it?

LOL! wa lao eh.. today is like total madness.. hahaa!! ok.. had parade.. LOL.. i turned up so damn early.. LOL.. forever la.. which parade i late? LOL.. ok .. stop praising.. anyway.. ya.. the parade was fun.. hhaa! damn dots.. the sun was like never give face la.. ahhaa.. anyway.. some cute things happen during the parade.. make us laugh like mad.. 1st is eric with his kenan lu rus.. then jiayi with his pandang pandang and pandang.. then me with the kiri pusing.. LOL! wa lao eh.. siao one.. hahaa! next.. is the counter strike.. GO GO GO! RIFLE!! PUT WHERE!! SAFARI BED!! GO GO GO!! hahaa! wa lao eh.. laugh like shit.. hahaa! to my NCOs.. u all are dots. hahaa! ok.. dots ma'am got dots NCOs. haha!

then went mac with yuqi and jiayi.. more siao.. was like crapping and toking until damn dots.. also laugh.. today basically my whole day is like laughing away.. zz.. ok.. hahaa! great day.. or i should say.. mad day.. LOL!

=) went to catch midnight show with irene they all.. LOL! watched HITCH.. yup.. nice movie.. funny also.. well.. think the whole cinema.. all my noise.. ya.. marcus they all complained.. LOL... sorry! but u all should know my voice la.. too SOFT.. LOL!! okok.. shall catch some more movies ok? yeah! then.. walked with irene to her house there.. then took cab home.. great night.. =)

nowadays.. like so sian.. weather is so hot.. damn dots.. then now.. schedule.. PACKED. dots.. exams coming le.. yawns.. haha! yea yea.. got my digital cam.. happy till mad.. LOL.. love my parents! but i never told them once. dunno how to express ba.. and like so weird to tell them.. dots.. watever.

STRESSED. peng! haix.. how? micro. haix. wad am i supposed to do? is it going to end up like my science? why is it forever like this? why do things turn out this way when it probably could be saved? perhaps, i am really giving up. AM I GOING TO !? why still like that when i have done my best? you told me before that it's the process that is really important and not the results.. but why do people everytime look at only the results and don't even bother about your process. WHY IS EVERYONE LOOKING AT THE RESULTS!!!! why. tell me. should everyone be like you, how great is the world.

to the world. stop bullying me. i cant take it anymore. i give in. to please u all. dun go too far.

wat do i wan to do with my life? i have no idea. and i don't even bother to think about it. thats me. like it or not. accept me. i dont care. i am pissed off by you all. wat do u actually wan from me? i have been honest. but wat do i get in return? nothing. why is that so? why can't i gain some trust from u all? pls tell me why. why did you all suspect me time and time again? WHY! i hate that. hate it to the core. and i don't think i deserve that. u all have hurt me. dats all i know. INDEED.

where are you when she needs you? do you know how much she needs u? do you know that she's taking it all by herself? do you? DO YOU?

tests over. projects over. woohoo! alright.. time to get down and study hard for my exams! jia you! alright.. can see that hills are over me.. haha.. so many things so do! oh gosh~ already mentally stressed.. but i believe i can do it! yesh! and guessed wat.. my schedule for the next 2 months are out! hahaa.. fast yea? so organised.. can't believe it.. but well.. what to do.. gotto plan my time properly in order to get things done. Addition trainings are added.. hurr.. just hope exams will end soon, then i could really really concentrate on the trainings. To my fellow NCOs and cadets, lets give our best and train hard for that important day. I believe you all can do it! =)

done.over.yes.no more projects! hehee.. ok.. today was ok.. had IS.. quite nice.. CATs. hoho.. those skits are damn funny.. enjoyed it.. thanks my grpmates ah~ then had IAC.. ok .. ppt presentation.. quite boring.. but again.. that mr desmond wee make it damn interesting with his qns and expressions.. hahaa.. ok.. thats it.. no more lessons on wed! NO MORE. =)