tired. so many things happened. gd or bad? unwilling. reluctant. i dunno how to communicate with you like the past. somehow, i feel that the gap is getting wider and wider where it should not happen if you have told me. i really cannot pretend as if nothing have happen and to carry on. perhaps you can.. but to tell u i cant. really cant. it just affected me too much. somehow, i really can't bring myself to talk to you.